missing her..

Walking by the aisle
where she once sat.

Hoping for the glances,
that she once gave.

Hoping to see
the sweet face, once again.

I, still
keep walking the longer route.
One,
that passes by her aisle.

And in the empty space,
she still lives!
And she even smiles at me,
like never before!

If I ever get to see her again,
will I turn a coward again,
as I always used to;
Dumbfolded by her beauty!!

--
Jagadeesh
3o/11/2oo7

dead or alive

Caught alive,
I was,
caged in a mirror!

Shot to death,
I was,
stuck to a photograph!!

--
Jagadeesh
29/11/2oo7

dance..

They dance,
to the music,
they dance.

Holding the lamps,
measuring the steps,
they dance.

The timing,
the rhythm,
the feet,
still does the feat!

Just that the dancers,
will never see,
the tears,
that rolled down my cheeks.

They dance,
holding the lamp,
the light that they
never will feel,

They dance!

When the feat is done,
I clap, and I clap again,
'cause, that's all that they will feel
that's all that can cheer
the two dancers,
the bravest I have seen!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

Note: This is out of an experience I had over the last weekend. A synchro dance performance, just that both the dancers were visually impaired. The sight dumbstruck me. The rhythm and the synchronization inspired me to every moment, they performed on the stage. These dancers are trained by a trust, who does such a commendable service on similar lines, achieving what we feel almost impossible! The trust's link is this:
http://www.samarthanam.org/

tears of a cloud..

The bottled cloud,
began to cry.

In its sorrow,
a rain was born.

Rained and rained,
filling the bottle;
Pushing the cap,
and popping it open!

Now in the wake,
of the new found freedom
water waits,
for another sunrise.

To dry up the sorrow,
and make them smile,
into a cloud;
Again!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

needs and wants..

I don't want
another today!
I will live,
in my yesterdays!!

I don't want
to get you back!
and all I want,
is another you!!

No one will
cry my tears!
So I'll ask you all,
to smile at my jokes!!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

random thought

Longed for the star,
and sky said it cant part!

Longed for a rainbow,
and rain drops said,
it is theirs!

Wished for a laugh,
but the clown told,
he owns the jokes!

Almost had a life,
when death said,
I'll take it back from you!

Last, but not the least,
wished to be loved,
when her boyfriend said,
she is, but, his!

To all, just one reply!
These wishes are mine;
Brooches,
pinned to my heart!

And one day,
I'll drench in the rains,
drops sparkling like stars;
Me, laughing out loud,
and dying in my lover's lap!!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

to a better use..

Could have flown,
faster than a bullet!

Could crossed,
seven seas in a leap!

Could have stopped
a running train!

I would have done,
all these,
if I hadnt spent my energy,
trying to convice you of my love!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

spirit-uality

Just another day,
me at the spirit shop!

A man come in,
seeking the spirit's bless.

Bottle one,
and bottle two;
Now he is high
and flying, in the sky!

Cashier now realises,
his need for a pair of wings;
To fly to this spiritual man,
and make him pay for it all..

All these, I see,
drowning,
in my bottle, whose count
I've lost long long back!

And I then ask the man,
when will I get to fly!!

--
Jagadeesh
26/11/2oo7

exam season..

Spring season,
my classroom days were!
I, trying to follow
the flower's scents!

Just that the flowers,
were worn by beautiful girls!

Summer comes,
and its time to play
Just that it is called,
study holidays!

Autumn comes,
at the end of holidays;
when falls my hope,
to clear any exam!

Winter arrives,
chilling my thoughts,
seeing the question papers.
Thoughts,
How to spend three hours
in that exam hall
fly swatting!

Exams comes and exams go,
Just like the seasons,
they always return;
Just that,
every time for me,
it remains the same paper,
and the same subject!!

--
Jagadeesh
21/11/2oo7

random thought..

Twisters,
cyclones,
the eddies..
I drown..
Growing heavier,
I drown..
I will rise again,
cleansed of your sins,
and I'll shout at you,
for making me your - "dirty laundry";
The scape goat,
of your new washing machine!

key-hole views..

Peeping,
through a keyhole;
Looking,
to the world inside;

I think!

I grew weary
of the sight.

Seeing
the key inside.
Locked safely,
behind the door;

Thinking,
that I am,
locked out
safer than the key!

--
Jagadeesh
12/11/2oo7

a summit attempt..

I know,
one more step,
Just one more
is all that's needed.

My legs, they tremble.
My fingers, they are raw.
Everything is failing,
Just the desire, drives..

With all my strength,
I push my fears aside.
Mistake is last thing,
that I can afford.

Climb on, my mind says..
Here I am, now at the summit.
Closer to the sky,
one more summit, I've done.

I scream, freedom.
A bird flies by,
and asks,
"why?"

--
Jagadeesh
o8/11/2oo7

who is it?

Night falls..
Incandescent lamp
in my room, burns..
A wind blows,
the power goes..

A match stick glows..
In its light,
I see a pair,
of, magnificient eyes..

Wind blows, again,
the flame dies..
Darkness drinks,
the last drop of light..

Finally,
the cat cries,
and runs away,
to some place well lit..

--
Jagadeesh
o2/11/2oo7

just once..

The last thing,
I want to see
before I fall asleep
is to get a glimpse of you!

The last thing,
I want to hear
is to hear you hum
that song, once again!

Every night,
I wish,
if I had you
at my arm's reach.

Every night,
night after night,
I pray for a relief,
from the mosquito bite..

--
Jagadeesh
o8/11/2oo7

murder call..

I'll drown you
to the end of your life..

I'll drown you
from head to toe..

In the water clear
I'll watch you drown..

And then coming back,
my glass, filled with life!!

--
Jagadeesh
16/1o/2oo7

endless, tonight!!

I wish for this night,
never to end!
You and me, in this bed,
sharing time, till eternity!

I wish for this night,
never to end!
To hear your whispers,
playing in my ears!

You and me,
and the endless joys;
Let this night,
never end.

Dreams - dont leave me alone.
I need you, through my night,
till my sleep,
wakes me up!!

I know, still..

I know
the end is near.
The moments are few.
We will part
and follow our path.

I know its a sin
to still love you,
knowing that you are in love
with someone else.

I know it hurts,
to break a heart.
And love never comes
down the way of hurt.

I know
this could be the last ever smile
you will gift me,
that I will cherish.

I know
this could be the last few seconds
you will be standing,
by my side.

I know,
I have to hide,
my pain,
my tears,
and even my love!!

--
Jagadeesh
17/1o/2oo7

salvation

Eternal bliss,
with just two kiss!

One,
when death kissed my life.

Again,
when that rose kissed my grave!

Andtoday, my soul,
kisses salvation!!

--
Jagadeesh
13/1o/2oo7

silence of a scape goat..

Wrongs you say,
is always right.

Rights I say,
is always wrong.

Answer me not,
'cause my questions are dumb.

Dont take my answers,
'cause they are always wrong.

So all the while, I say,
I am dumb-folded by love!

--
Jagadeesh
17/1o/2oo7

victory

The long wait,
the hard struggle.
Drenched and waiting;
Finally..
the umbrella opens!
And the rain stops!!

--
Jagadeesh
11/1o/2oo7

prayer of the hour

All I need,
is another me.

To share the pain
and share the joy..
To hope in vain
and still not cry!

All I need,
is another me;
To share my life,
that I get to live -

atleast, a second more!!

--
Jagadeesh
13/1o/2oo7

a thought on thoughts

My thoughts,
they dive
into the blue ocean..
Drinks away its blue!

It flies to the sky,
and whispers to the sky,
the secret,
to be blue..

The sun then comes,
in his reddish attire.
Stealing his clothes,
my thoughts run away..
And the sun hides,
behind the veil of the night.

Then my thoughts try,
to fly, far far away.
But a chain clings,
that says, the thoughts are still mine!!

--
Jagadeesh
o3/1o/2oo7

my heaven..

When my mind,
is a hell,
how do I think?

When my home,
is a hell,
where do I live?

When my love,
turns to be a hell,
Why fear, of a fail?

Alas,
when my God,
relocates to hell,
whom should I believe!!

So, now I say,
I've found my heaven.
But, just for a change,
its moved to hell!!

--
Jagadeesh
16/1o/2oo7

drinking silently

Sneak in,
through the kitchen door.
Open half,
the refridgerator door..
Stand by the side,
to hide the light..

Streches arms,
to get that wine bottle..
Having it,
how to open the cork

Let me shake,
shake shake,
and pull open the cork
Cork pops!

Mom and dad
rushes to the scene
"What are you doing
with that wine bottle?"

"..Drinking,
...silently!!"

--
Jagadeesh
o7/1o/2oo7

a random thought

Darkness,
creeps in..
Thoughts,
unsettled..
Night,
still young..
Worried,
how to get sleep..
I wait,
and finally,
voila;
The power-cut ends!!

--
Jagadeesh
16/1o/2oo7

waking up late

Waking up late,
I miss the sunrise,
still in its blushing red!
I miss the birds' songs,
singing from across my window
I miss the morning so pure,
Soaked in the tenderness of dews!!

Waking up early,
I miss the coziness,
curling under my favourite quilt!
I miss the snooze of my alarm
whining, to the knock on its head!
But what I miss the most..
Is my mom's words,
imploring me to get up, a million times over!!

a fear overwhelming

Anxiety,
fear,
I can't hold.

Those eyes,
beautiful;
Still,
thoughts,
frightening.

Her hands,
so soft and tender;
Still,
I cant help,
my fears.

Here comes,
the thrust,
the pain,
the blood.

God,
Why am I so scared,
still,
of injections!!

--
Jagadeesh
18/1o/2oo7

blind rains..

Sugarcane juice
Best,
when Sun is up
Not
when it hides
behind the clouds

Sugar cane juice
he sells.
But his life,
never that sweet

It rains,
drenching him
making him run
and hide in a shade!

I see him
through my windshield.
Sitting in my car,
I can see him cry..

Are they tears?
Or are they rain drops
blindly falling on him,
like me,
seeing, but still blind!!

--
Jagadeesh
20/1o/2oo7

easy way out

A slip,
a drop..

It falls,
it bounces..

Comes back,
and hits.

I;
Now dead,

My words,
my assassins!!

--
Jagadeesh
27/1o/2oo7

Spark of Innovation

A sudden thought
a sudden enlightenment.
The spark..
Yes I have gained it.
Knowledge I asked for,
emotions i seeked,
Everything in a second,
how, but, I wondered,

The coconut was still there,
reminding me,
the days of Newton.

--
Jagadeesh
07/1o/2oo7

childhood memories..

My love for red,
love to be in rain,
love to be naughty,

The child in me,
has never died.

Shooting the silly doubts
that no one did answer
Playing in puddles,
filled with laughter..

The child in me,
is still not dead.

Some colours have faded,
some remains as stains.
Like an old abandoned canvas
tarnished by sun and rains.

Like my childhood dream,
I have become..
And my dream to be a child,
I can never be, again!!

--
Jagadeesh
3o/1o/2oo7

slow clock

When time of mine,
is running so slow..
When every second
runs in years..

When thoughts,
quit flying,
and they walk,
to their nests..

I say..
I am in love,
and I say,
I am hoping,
to find you, my love!!

--
Jagadeesh
o7/1o/2oo7

Free Falling

Thirteenth floor.
A sudden urge,
to jump and dive.
Wanted to know,
what end of life is!
Wanted to test,
if God can save me!!

God showed me the way;
A window.
Up on this thirteenth floor.
No time to waste!
I jumped,
through the window!

The pain extruciating,
when I got to know..
the window,
was closed!!!

--
Jagadeesh
o7/1o/2oo7

A dedication

He,
had the most beautiful smile,
I had ever seen.

I was amazed,
the first time he called me uncle.

Still remember the day
he soaked my trousers.

My dear,
I miss your smiles.
No word
can express the love,
I had for you..

Every night,
every star
as they twinkle
I see you smile at me,
from that heaven of yours!


--
Jagadeesh
16/1o/2oo7

For a nephew I lost when I was 13 yrs old!

Shattered Love

An hour,
was in love
with the hour
that came next!

Comes second,
the new found love
of every hour.

The hours fight,
over the minute,
Finally the minute leaves,
with its new found love - seconds!

Hours..
Shattered..
Into minutes,
and even seconds!!

--
Jagadeesh
o7/1o/2oo7

Pole to Pole

Storms start.
Oceans rise.
Ice breaks..
Poles,
falling in each other

She,
had told me,
she and I
are poles apart.

Still..
She and I,
we fall in a kiss.

Poles
melting in each other!!!

--
Jagadeesh
25/o9/2oo7

Voices inthe Dark

Middle of the night,
my friend,
wakes me up.
shakes me up;
up from my sleep.

His face, frightned.
A voice!!
He was going crazy.
And asked me
to stay awake,
And be with him!

Through the night,
a sleepless night,
I stayed awake;
And he fell asleep,
like a child!
I, waited for the voice,
In vein,

Next morning,
he thanks me,
for being awake
And..
Not snoring!!

--
Jagadeesh
25/o9/2oo7

Home Sweet Home

Some time,
some day,
I know,
I'll find my way home.

A home,
far away;
Where grass,
is still green.

Till then,
I'll be in my chair,
Thinking..
How will i
find my way home!!

--
Jagadeesh
26/o9/2oo7